So i had this dream about Teddy and he was throwing some kind of party for christmas, and he was payign attention but i guess he wasn't paying enough attention? i dunno i was like clinging onto him everywhere he went and he was reading this one book and writing in it and he wouldn't let me see his book or like pay attentiont to me in the library, like i remember i eventually got lonely and like clujng to his feet and he kinda shrugged it off O.o then i also got stuck in some weird ass ride with emily (again seperated from anthony) and it was really weird, and the only moment i remember is the very end when we were like in this room and it was all happy but this guy appears out of nowhere and then someone gets sucked under the water and blood comes to the surface and then theirs this huge BOOM and it's like water EVERYWHEREEEEE. and then the cieling started going down and emily was just like are you fucking serious? and we like found the exit and ran to get out because wed been in this ride for like 2 hours. then after this ride anthony picked me up....yes he drives in it, and he drove me to his xmas party thing that he was throwing and like we parked in this parking lot farr away and walked home, and he made this GODLY choclate cake and he was paying more attention to me but still oddly not enough so i like grabbed my friens monika and calley and was like We have to bake a better cake then anthony before the party starts! and thats when my mom woke me up....I feel like i have this huge GAPPING hole in my chest and i miss him like a bitch. and then i read jessicas journal thing and i was like holy shit this must be what she feels like.....

So when i see you guys later today don't be suprised to be tackled.....